My brother in law is such a fucking asshole.

God.

Alright, so basically the rundown is, I live with my sister and brother-in-law and their two kids. I'm pretty much a live-in nanny.

So here's the thing. I want to go on a float trip with my boyfriend and his family. The entire family, complete with uncles and grandpas and grandmas and parents and sibs (well, his little brother).

My brother-in-law said no. No big deal right? Wrong. Because he's not saying no for my wellbeing, he's saying no to get on my nerves and because he's still trying to punish me for me having to go with him and my sister EVERYWHERE when they were dating. He even made me call my mom and ask her if it would be alright with her (at 11 PM) if I went. He TOLD ME that if I got her to say yeah, it's okay, then he'd let me go.

I did. He's still saying no. Now it's six in the morning, I'm running on five hours sleep, and freaking out about it because I've already told my boyfriend I can go, because my sister said I can go, but Tim (B-I-L) is still saying I can't, even though he told my sister I could if I didn't bug him. Which I didn't, all night long. And when I asked him at about 12:30, because I needed to go to bed, he tells me no.

No. After all the fucking shit I've done in the past few days, he tells me no. I've worked my ass off, and ever since he's come back from the road, I've gotten him whatever the fuck he's wanted, watched his kids when he wanted, did pretty much anything he wanted

His only fucking excuse is that 'I'm seventeen and he knows that seveteen year olds do'.

It might sound a little reasonable if I didn't know my brother in law. And if I didn't know me.

I've never gotten into trouble a day in my life. Ever. Not once. At least, not with the law. I don't break the law in ways that could get me into trouble.

The float trip is overnight and I guess he's freaking out because he figures me and my boyfriend will be fucking all damn night.

Wrong again. Zach's (BF) family won't let us near each other in that way, especially not while we're around everyone. I'm just... so freaking tired of this, because I've never done anything not to earn their trust, and I've pretty much raised myself. I don't need a fucking father now, dammit. I don't need a figure and sure as hell don't need someone to take responsibility for me.

The only thing I fucking need from anyone is a damn roof over my head, and I pay for that with my sweat, tears, and blood. Seriously.